So I’m currently writing a fiction and the story takes place in NYC. The problem’s that I’ve never lived there so I don’t really know everything about the city. I really need someone who has lived or has grown or grew up, (that’s better) in NYC. S/He must really know every corner of the city well, right? Please message me or email me, xreshax(at)aol(dot)com
I keep telling myself,
“You have to remember that you might not be the only one he treats like this. This is such a special treatment but he might never mean to make it special at all since you’re only a friend to him. Plus, always remember there are the others. They might be treated as same as you or even more. You can’t let anything he does make you feel like you mean to him how he means to you and think that he’s got a thing for you. YOU ARE JUST FRIENDS there’s nothing more than.”
I do that because I don’t wanna get hurt because if I ever get hurt, there’s nobody and nothing to blame but my own high expectations.
When people seem like they’re doing so much better without me in their life anymore, sometimes I wonder if it’s actually true or if it’s all just a front. Like is that smile on their face a genuine one or are they just smiling to hide how unhappy they are? Do they miss me as much as I miss them or…
“Everyone says love hurts, but that is not true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Envy hurts. Everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality, love is the only thing in this world that covers up all pain and makes someone feel wonderful again. Love is the only thing in this world that does not hurt.”—(via wordsandlyrics)
Sooner or later, you’ll find a girl you fall hard for. The girl who suddenly becomes the centre of your world. The girl that guides you inside. The girl you tell every little thing that happens in your life. By that time, are you gonna forget me and the things we once had and have now? What if I’m that replaceable to you when you’re not at all? And what if I haven’t found anyone to be on my side when you have gone so far with somebody new? I’m afraid I’ll lose you one day. Either lose you for someone else or death. I’m afraid that you’ll forget me so easily when I’ve tried tons of times to and tons of time I’ve come back to you. I know that I don’t let you know how much I’m still holding on to you and all the possibilities. Holding on to my dreams to finally spend beautiful days together with you again. Holding on to this love that always brings me back to you. You seem to think that I’ve moved on. I thought I was bad at hiding.
I always hope that I will always be someone important to you. Just know that, I’m someone whose shoulders you can always lean on when you need to. Someone whose ears are always ready to listen and someone whose heart will always save a spot for you.